my heart has a poem..

The thought of you walking away is killing me.

I was not given a choice, 

..you are not mine.

Who am I to get hurt and stop you from leaving.

Who am I to say no and cry.

Who am I…I am nothing but an acquaintance.

Every time I see you, I feel like I own the world.

When you look at me, it tumble down my reality.

Just your simple smile, my whole world laugh.

..but you are not mine...

 Its just me…and I know that.

I tried so hard to deny this feeling.

I am trying to keep it to myself..

I am doing my best not to let you know.

And its killing me softly…slowly..
..im trying to believe that I'm numb.
but I am not..because

…You are not mine.

Why you?. Why do I have to know you?

Why do you have to ruin my peace?

I am happy being alone, I was not lonely.

But when you came, you ruined that peace.

 why do you have to mess my life.

Who are you? Why me..why.

My dream succumb my reality.

I want to believe that we have a chance,

But there is none.

I want to rectify things and make you fall for me.

But when I look at you,

I realized that in my reality,

There is no you, just me.

…Because you are not mine.

You're the man in my fading dream. 

Your voice is an echo of my past.

Your name exudes pain.

Your existence is a blade that cuts my heart,

My agony is killing me,

You are my personal heroin. 

And you are not good for me.

…because you can never be mine.

By this, I will end everything.

I will forget you,

I will delete you in my memory.

Like you never existed at all.

I will reprogram my heart.

You will never hurt me again..

Yes, you hurt me..though you don’t know it.

I hate saying goodbye,

But I wont say see you later either.

Id rather not see you again.

 I will now crawl back to my shell.

...Alone, but not lonely.