.....Pump it!

Im standing in the middle of nowhere.
I am trying to move and walk around but I end up on the same spot .
I'm looking for something, anything, but I couldn’t find it.
I have no idea what I am looking, but I know that I need to find it.
There should be a way on how to find it. Where should I start? And where should it end?
I don’t know where to begin, and I'm afraid of the ending.
There should be a way. I will find a way.
I walk around again, slowly, trying to familiarize myself to my environment.
 I open my eyes wide enough to see what I need to see.
The vastitude of life is eating my inner self.
 Gravity is pulling me. Where is it? I need to find it. Is someone hiding it from me?
 My time is ticking so fast. I need to find it. I'm losing track.
What is waiting for me if I wont find it? Will I lose my sanity?
Will I be cursed? I don’t know. The answer is not something that I'm looking.
But I'm looking for something. And that something is hiding.
Then I tripped myself into something.. It's soft, wet and bleeding.
I found it! It's just there all these time. It's not missing..its bleeding.
And it's numb, it doesn’t feel anything. The blood is dripping, beat is fading. Wait!
What do you call it again…oh, it's a heart. Is it my heart?
I checked my chest, no beat, yes its my heart.
Ive been looking for it, now that I found it, I need to take care of it.
"..beat again. Pump again. That’s your purpose isn't it? Why are you not doing your purpose?
Are yo tired? Do you want to rest first?  If I give you time to rest, would you pump again?
Pump like you did before? Would you? Will you?" …..
.....I found you, that’s all that matters. I will help you pump again.
This is not the right time yet. Let's wait. Let's wait..
let's wait until we're both ready.
Help me help you. I can't do this alone. Let's help each other. Let's guard each other.
Let's put a wall, and when the right time comes, lets' open it..Together.
And let's smile again…by then, you will be called a smiling heart… :)